sometimes i pull up a photo of an ex just to prove to myself i was seen like that once. i've gotta stop doing that, especially because my camera roll doesn't reset to recent photos by default, i...took a look at someone from a few years ago last night, and i opened my phone again this morning and whaddya know? there he was again. the photo, i mean. i know, i've really gotta stop that. if i hadn't done it last night,
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still got this fuck ass cough.......
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obviously, what ICE is doing is terrible, and Nazi-like, yes. and i need you all to know that the Nazis learned from the u.s., and how they captured, tortured, killed, & 'owned' runaway slaves and indigenous people. may not be articulating this well but violence is foundational to the u.s. and it should not surprise you and it is not new and your race/domestic loyalty will not save you
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benny1548132
7 months ago
...oh, the things white people will do for white people. yeah, the murders were unjust & tragic, and seeing even the most superficial, passive people who normally don't do shit but clutch their pearls up in arms about this is so...pissing me off
new blog (and if you recognize some of it nuh-uh you don't i deleted that draft/page for a reason)
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i was just fucking talking about the four humors https://uquiz.com/quiz/mTVid8/four-humors-omegaverse-type
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benny1548132
8 months ago
they told me i was a melancholic omega. i disagree solely because they called me the top of the food chain and said i could be fixed
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benny1548132
8 months ago
i have no idea. despite being a dog/wolf guy i dunno shit about the alpha/omega-verse
i am literally just generally cool with everyone. i feel that that is true. and then my heart stops when i witness cringe lib behavior and i have to manually force a restart on my self otherwise i start spiraling because god i'm gonna die alone and a virgin
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benny1548132
8 months ago
that is the funny, horny, unserious version of what happens. (where is a principled faggot to find another principled faggot?) what actually happens is i get so overwhelmed by the casual cruelty & disengenousness of nearly every single person around me that it can make me break down...(where is a human being to find another human being?) (is love dead?) please fuck me
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i love my website. not because it's good or anything but because it's a safe place (relatively, i know) (but it's the only place i can even pretend is safe) for me to express myself and meet people as myself without needing to mask who i am. i love this stupid little website. i love you guys. i love that some of you seem to like me. some of you have emailed me. i don't even know why. i don't think i deserve it
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new blog + there was a poll there, too. i deleted it after it got all the results it was gonna get, but i screenshotted the results, so that i can remember & look back on how you fucking crazies validated me. thank you to everyone who did
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![olly place :] avatar](/site_screenshots/33/48/ollyjunkyard/index.html.50x50.webp)
though, i would've done something worse. i feel like complete shit. i hate myself and everything else. nothing's notably worse and things might finally be getting better if i stop being lazy, but i just feel awful. hell. i need other ways to prove to myself i'm a real person.
....i mean, even he wouldn't want me to do that. i've gotta find another way.
We luv you, find a picture of some flowers and look at that pls. It's okay to hurt.
what's your favorite flower? ...is it the lotus? i'll look at that.
mine is the goldenrod. kinda basic but i love it.
basic is okay (nothing is basic, everything is). i like dandelions