Valentine's Day is bibimbap, nostalgic music, setting up my NAS so I can stream my music while I take walks, and a sleeping cat
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More zines up on https://zinetherapy.neocities.org/library/ I have a few others to locate and upload about creative processes and such since I think that's most relevant to people here!
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emilynhoward
1 year ago
fwiw, I enjoyed the format of this post even though it wasn't what you were intending. I also had an intense January for different personal reasons but same world events reasons as you. I am glad my words were a help. And I'm excited about zine therapy! I may do one. :)
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mordecaialba
1 year ago
zuck wazowski...i really loved this journal and i appreciate your openness and vulnerability. i've been having a lot of the same struggles and it's nice to know i'm not so alone
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crunchweb
1 year ago
Thanks for the good feedback! I had intended it to be a month in review like "here's what I did" but it ended up being "here's what I thought about" and I can see how that is more relatable! I'll keep that in mind for future posts too. :)
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sometimes I want to share everything but sometimes I just want to take my whole life offline and stop talking to everyone. sometimes it feels crazy to think that anyone who ever said they were impacted by my writing meant it. I am actually really fucking dumb. no one should be listening to me!
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crunchweb
1 year ago
sometimes I might have a little turn of phrase that's interesting and makes people think. and every time I send an email newsletter I get a bunch of replies that say they never thought of it that way and they're glad to get my perspective. and yet! I know that my ideas are useless.
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crunchweb
1 year ago
My psychiatrist told me I shouldn't even entertain these thoughts because once I start feeling useless you know it just snowballs but like how do people actually fix this? how do people get over it? I'm a professional writer and I still can't get over it. I'm literally supporting myself with writ
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cutiesuccubus
1 year ago
Imposter syndrome can be fixed over time with an amazing DBT technique called "opposite action"
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cutiesuccubus
1 year ago
You can also try to categorize your thoughts into "helpful and true" vs "not helpful and not true" and do whatever you can to disregard and not entertain the latter
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crunchweb
1 year ago
@plushspace thank you for a practical tip! I've heard a lot about DBT and it seems like I really need to engage in it. thank you, I will try this!
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cutiesuccubus
1 year ago
Yo i am so glad i could share this amazing tip with you. Its so easy to feel like a slave to our thoughts but we have more free will and more control than we think. This also might sound wild but gut health can also directly effect mental health as well particularly flammatory foods. Next time low self esteem strikes try also clocking the foods you ate around the time of having those thoughts vs times you felt good
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emilynhoward
1 year ago
It is not at all a problem that you have these thoughts/feelings. Give them space and gentleness and they lose their power. I just try to remember that the self doubt itself is part of the creative process, and that if I keep going on the project and give my feelings space to come and go, it usually resolves on its own.
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okay I finally figured out how to publish Obsidian notes so my whole life is about to change
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this is so cool please everyone make one and I'll take a walk through your text and images https://walky.space/
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I am slow on progress but starting to upload some zines if you're into that kind of thing. 2 down 10 to go! https://zinetherapy.neocities.org/library/
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what an incredibly emotional and bad MLKJr weekend in America. I hope everyone is finding comfort in whatever way they can.
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2006 https://youtu.be/YMRZwj9hjyk
in this 2006 moment I'm also gonna watch the movie Wristcutters which I probably haven't seen since 2006