I deeply relate to today's entry. It's so incredibly disorienting living in this world. Thank you for trusting us enough to share something so personal to you. You'll always be Ashley to me. No matter what you are. I want to tell you to be brave but being brave isn't easy especially in our messed up world. It's so suffocating not being able to express yourself out of fear for what will happen to you. Despite it all..

I still want to be me. To love myself just the way I am. This world might not change. Violence occurs no matter what... people are hurt over things they can't change every day. So despite it all I still want to live my life. Life is short and after I experienced something traumatic I wished I could just hide away from the world. I still want to sometimes. But thing I want the most is to be happy.

I want you to be happy too. I hope happiness finds you one day. That you say goodbye to your loneliness. Above all, I hope that you can find solace and peace somewhere away from the harsh reality of this world. I'm lowkey rambling but I really wanted to tell you this. Ily Ashley ♡

You wanna know something personal? I think Ashley is a beautiful name. And nothing will ever change that part of you. ❤️

You are a real girl, just one that needs to bear hardships that most people can't even imagine. I can really resonate with what you told us in this post. Like, the whole reason I feel so low and bitter all the time inside as I try to not show any of it. Recent loss just opened up that huge wound in myself and amplified this feeling of loneliness and darkness a thousand fold. Thank you for this post,

it helps me feel some kind of comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in feeling this eerily similar mindset in very similar circumstance as a closeted trans man. i hope you'll take care of yourself and treat yourself kindly in this wretched world we live in. You are one of most deserving, kindest girls I've ever met on the internet :)

Thanks a super-duper lot everyone <33333

Hi Ashley! I read your blog and idk if I understand it all but I wish to tell you that it's ok to want things. It's ok to let yourself wish for more even if at times it seems those wishes may break you. We're human our lives are never complete. I hope you overcome your burnout and any other heavy emotions weighing you down. You don't suck and you matter a lot to me. Stay safe!!

Thank you dear for taking your precious time to sit through all of that. @fries-and-ice-cream

ashley hihi !! just like mani said , it is completely normal to want and wish things.. and i can completely relate to your situation >_< but feeling burnout is normal! it's a sign that our body needs a break, and we, percieve it as laziness. i hope you feel your best soon, and i hope you get / do everything you've wanted !! it is totally fine for us to ponder. know that u are awesome and so is ur blog! we love you <3

@naviimiu 💖💖