i first heard of the concept of whalefall as the basis for this religion worldbuilding someone online was doing, tinkering with the concept of a dead god, so even as an envi sci student, that's always what i think of first when i hear it lol. but the real, ecological phenomenon is so so crazy to me too, especially considering the timescale (ecosystem can be sustained sometimes for over 100 years!!)

@girl-wonderlost that's so crazy, my gf had an entire ttrpg campaign based on the concept of lesser beings feeding off of a fallen god. she nicknamed it "godfall"

One step forward on the path to attain happiness. i shoulda put it in my writing page but i think i'll leave it as a new starting point for how I write my blog posts after this post (i.e. actually writing about my life) and then put the philosophising about my feelings in writing, yup im doing that i just decided that right now, ok easy. :)

This blog post resonates with me-- it mentions the same sort of thing I think I wrote about in my last blog post as well. I wish we could all be free from this shroud of irony and cynicism! It's a difficult ditch to dig yourself out of, that's for sure, and I am certainly not exempt. The journey to thinking positively is a difficult one, but one worth traveling. :) Proud of you!

@coffeeplant thanks for the kind words, and yes! may we all be free together!! :)

i think the job search is making me lose my mind, but i cant stop because i dont want to be in overdraft again and i need money mannnnn, haha its whatever though, this too shall pass or whatever

I locked in and finally changed my journal page into a writing one and in only 2 days!! I forgot this page even existed for like 5 months and hadn't read any writing since my last entry and while I was updating the page I nearly deleted everything there but I suppressed that urge successfully. No new writing, but now I feel like I can actually start writing something :)

i've been bad recently at going on neocities and working on my website but for real this time im locking in!!!

thought about writing more about university, but i think im physically incapable of ever mentioning let alone writing about university ever again

CONGRATULATIONS!

@coffeeplant thank you!!

procrastination final boss i started my blog post a week ago, restarted it 4 days ago and finally finished it today... rimworld is just too powerful...

Completely agree about LinkedIn. I despise that platform. It all feels souless and like a joke. Congrats on reaching the end of ur uni studies. Take it easy.

@malcriada when my own university dedicated an entire lecture about using linkedin and told us to use AI?? to make linkedin posts i knew then that linkedin was a force of evil unleashed to this world... thanks for your kind words! I'll try my best :)