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astraya

2 years ago

ok i go to doc for follow up on back of head knot infection of neck hell and mri is coming up.. hoping to feel better its just tough but i will do some more work hopefully mid april this is just taking forever

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swiftred ocrevol

2 years ago

I was looking at your magnet poetry. I especially enjoy the stacked repetition, my favorite one being the one about killing

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ocrevol 2 years ago

thank you! I have a lot of fun with the magnets

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swiftred

2 years ago

Hi, how is everyone? I've been feeling so burnt out, I can't bear to touch the site until things lighten up.

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pixelglade 2 years ago

Haven't been motivated to work on my site lately either, but there's nothing wrong with taking a break so you come back refreshed

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owlroost 2 years ago

That makes three of us. I've stuck to little things and Muse because that's what I can do- do what feels okay and don't worry about the rest. It can wait.

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

Four of us... I'm slacking on reworking my site . I hope you recover swiftly!! Take some time for yourself always

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sneekrealm 2 years ago

i just drill everything into my at this point catch-almost-all notebook part til i get some bout of feist (or time) to chip away at the rest! but burnout is so real and ive been there w this to tiny extent n other shit in life p majorly so i wish u some ease within all that

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ocrevol 2 years ago

five of us...

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cheytopia 2 years ago

Bunch of us in the same boat I see. We're all charging up for our next season of creativity.

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soulbox 2 years ago

Same. I am always burned out from work and now I'm trying to finish up this new layout. Things take way longer than I expect. ;w;

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soulbox 2 years ago

Do take breaks. Breaks are good. ;w;/

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swiftred 2 years ago

"Charging up for our next season of creativity" is the perfect way to put it. I'm wishing everybody good rest and rejuvination :,D Thank you all for the kind and gentle words

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soder 2 years ago

it's a personal site for a reason silly - it's all on your own pace. take care of yourself. we're always happy to have you here, update or no.

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astraya

2 years ago

i have had the cyst well removed i am in recovery now ... so sigh but hoping to work some on it in April March has been full of surprises and healing takes up so much of time in a day I will know more on MRI in April and so i push this off for little while longer OW!

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sodium-amytal 2 years ago

yaaaas on your albums list! A Perfect Circle slaps

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astraya

2 years ago

had mri so waiting now for results and april appt so still not up to doing code for games sorry

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astraya reinlibrary

2 years ago

thks for the follow so returned favor followed u

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reinlibrary 2 years ago

No problem! Thank you!

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swiftred updated their site.

2 years ago

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swiftred 2 years ago

The button wall grows! Plus two new website descriptions. To those who I've neglected to thank, thank you kindly for following me <3

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swiftred 2 years ago

I also updated the members list for bookbug. I'm apprehensive about starting this month's book. I know it's going to start out confusing and I have a feeling I'll have a hard time with it, but I've heard good things about the book.

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missymjwrites 2 years ago

💖💖💖 once I get to updating my leaving page (slowly doing a big sort of revamp-lite to the site) I'll add your button! also o totally understand about Booking March book! it's very confusing at the start but I feel like chapter 3 is where it picks up (which wasn't too long for me at least).

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

The little blurb you wrote for my site had me tear up.. a small kindness perhaps but a large one in my heart. Thank you, truly. On another note, I've been meaning to read Giovanni's Room, so it was neat to see it pop up here!! I struggle with feeling like I don't have "what it takes" to read "correctly" as well, so it made me feel a little less alone to see your review start with that similar feeling haha

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aeonluna updated their site.

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swiftred updated their site.

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swiftred 2 years ago

A new muse entry is out now =)

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owlroost 2 years ago

I feel you on being a late bloomer... I wish the world made more space for us to all take our time. For now, we really do have to take it.

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soulbox 2 years ago

I love your writings. And yes, I feel the same. Or that I want to do what I do out of love and not out of pressure from the world around me.

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swiftred 2 years ago

I feel I’m in good company. Thank you @owlroost

swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you @soulbox, this means so so much

astraya

2 years ago

MRI is scheduled so we see how things go after that on when i come back to finish stuff this has been a 2 yr wait to get this finally so yay! but the pain has gotten worse in time and so ow! just ow! when i know what i am dealing with then i will come do more or make changes to stuff still want to finish the games i got up though like the magic 8 crystal ball and runes and tarot games for sure...

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swiftred updated their site.

2 years ago

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swiftred 2 years ago

A new blog post is out =)

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bearlythere 2 years ago

ah, this one hits close to home. identity is such a struggle, but I find it comes when you're not looking for it.

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ocrevol 2 years ago

I also have these tendencies + appreciate your candor in writing about this experience, it can indeed feel very alienating!

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pixelglade 2 years ago

I used to have a similar problem. When I was growing up I used to make a lot of blogs which I would usually end up deleting. I'm a bit more discerning about what I put online now to try avoid that kind of anxiety that I've "said too much". But I can relate to being miserable when my gender identity wasn't matching, it felt like an entirely different life where I would dissociate all the time and feel disconnected.

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swiftred 2 years ago

I'm glad this resonates for you all :) And thank you lots for taking the time to read my writing and leaving thoughtful comments. I'm always delighted when there's dialogue surrounding a piece

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aeonluna updated their site.

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swiftred updated their site.

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swiftred 2 years ago

Popping in to tell you about my month x3 Very small update

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miela583 2 years ago

That’s very big, though, even if the amount if text is small compared to the whole page! It sounds like things are moving in such a wonderful direction!

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michaelmas 2 years ago

Woah mega-congrats (^○^)

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you both!! <3 <3

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cheytopia 2 years ago

Yay this is great news!!! Excited to see where this transitional journey leads you!

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you!!

bearlythere 2 years ago

So great to see this update. Congrats on starting T! My advice: start taking progress selfies! It can sometimes be hard to see the changes when they happen slowly, but looking back at photos from a year ago makes me realize how far I've come! You got this!

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you!! What great advice. I've been recording my voice so far, but now I'll also be taking selfies =)

bisha astraya

2 years ago

your favorites page has so much character with all the gifs but the fortune cookie page is my favorite..create away.

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astraya 2 years ago

thank you

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swiftred updated their site.

2 years ago

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swiftred 2 years ago

I forgot to put back buttons on two of my blog posts, so figured I'd fix that. I doubt anyone is paying that close attention to me, but it feels better just to announce that I may not update the site for awhile. I'm feeling burnt out and stressed, so I'm trying to give time to let it pass.

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lizonline 2 years ago

Take your time and feel better soon! Stress is no fun, don't over-extend yourself working on your website ^_^

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swiftred 2 years ago

Thank you kindly!

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soulbox 2 years ago

Get some rest, treat yourself kindly. ^^

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astraya

2 years ago

ok beginning to feel little better maybe march before i feel up to working on web page and games like runes and cyrstalball and tarot but i will eventually

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swiftred updated their site.

2 years ago

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swiftred 2 years ago

A wild blog post appears! in which I tell you why I'm a silly goose

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miela583 2 years ago

Part of my job is customer support over the phone, and I suspect some people expect that if they are talking to someone following the golden rule, it’s their privilege to take advantage of it. Being kind is still important, I think, but I agree with your conclusion here pretty thoroughly.

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iztopher 2 years ago

Ugh, this is such a good post and such a hard lesson to learn, I feel you. My partner and I had to sit down and talk about this because I kept operating under this rule, but the way I wanted to be treated wasn't necessarily the way she did, and vice versa. I hope you can get back some of the kindness you put out into the world, even if it's expressed differently.

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

This is a wonderful entry, one I (and I'm sure countless others) really feel. I was actually talking earlier to a friend about something related; our ways of masking our autism often comes out as extreme politeness, and for me specifically, submissiveness. It is hard for me to identify sometimes that when I laugh at a stranger's joke I don't find funny, or smile and nod my agreement, etc., if that is -

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phi1l1y 2 years ago

- me wanting to be kind and acting out of my heart, or simply the way I feel I must behave. It's certainly a nuanced thing, especially when taking into consideration what you've said about how everyone loves and needs differently. Commencing my yapping now!

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swiftred 2 years ago

It made my day to hear that you both enjoyed and related to my post, and it's nice knowing I'm not the only one <3 thank you for commenting. @iztopher thank you for the well wishes!!

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swiftred 2 years ago

@phi1l1y I honestly think masking is such a bigger part of this than I give credit for. I've been trying to unmask in small ways, like trying not to be overly emotive, or compulsively smile all the time at everyone and, like you said, not laugh at unfunny things, and I realize just how deeply ingrained it is!! You're right that it's hard to separate. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts!

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