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inkcaps
2 years ago
Late night rambling! Let me know if you can connect with any of this, I'd love to talk about it!! <3
inkcaps
2 years ago
OH and I changed the background of this month's diary! I like the light twinkling effect ; __ ;
michaelmas
2 years ago
I think it's very natural that you'd want there to be little discrepancy between how you perceive yourself & how others perceive you & you shouldn't think too hard about it. I normally feel the opposite of the feeling you've described & feel as though I'm in a perpetual state of change.
inkcaps
2 years ago
@vashti I agree on both accounts tbh!! It's something I should let go and not feel I have to justify to others. It's something I've been trying to unlearn, but for a whole time I lived like I had something to prove and I can fall into those patterns sometimes. The last few years I feel like I've changed a lot to, but mostly for better. It's fascinating to watch yourself grow over time, just like everything else does!
michaelmas
2 years ago
I think rather than seeing it as some sort of justification, you should frame it as authenticity; You're wanting to be authentic & true & there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's commendable & shows that you have self confidence.
ophanimkei
2 years ago
I feel really similarly. I often want people to know the truest version of myself, but I let the worst parts of myself out due to mental illness or sleep deprivation or some other silly thing. And then I feel like I have to work really hard to let people know the "truest" version of myself again even if the part of myself I displayed is technically me too.
ophanimkei
2 years ago
It's very obvious with family and friends I've known for years. My tastes and interests and personality evolved quite a bit within the last two years, and as a result, I get a lot of recommendations for things I would've liked as a teenager that I've outgrown now.
inkcaps
2 years ago
@vashti, you are very kind and I appreciate your thoughtful insight. This is a beautiful way to reframe and you're right! At its core it's all about wanting to express the most authentic version of yourself, huh? Thank you, I will keep this in mind!! ♡♡
vivarism
2 years ago
Are you perhaps worried that others won't accept your changes? Like someone might say, "oh no, I liked the old version better!" Do you need reassurance that, no matter how your beliefs evolve, you can still be loved for the Essence of Sarah at your core? You dont have to answer here and maybe I'm totally off the mark. Just something to think about.
inkcaps
2 years ago
@ophanimkei the shift from your teen years into emerging adulthood can especially be rife with change imo. It's a big time for exploring your identity and since others aren't privy to your internal world, they still have that particular impression of you. It can be hard!!
inkcaps
2 years ago
@ophanimkei it can be hard feeling like you're being authentic when burdened with things like mental illness and sleep deprivation too... it's easier said than done, but I think it's important to be forgiving of yourself for the times you've been hurting ♡
inkcaps
2 years ago
@vivarism hmm, this is interesting food for thought, I appreciate your questions!! That might be a part of it, and I have felt that fear of rejection in the past, but I think in this example it's like the fear of being perceived as flakey lest I "justify" myself?
inkcaps
2 years ago
Hi, thank you for reaching out to me about this, you're very kind! I'll keep you posted about whether I decide to join or not if that's okay! ♡
inkcaps
2 years ago
Ahhhh thank you Vashti, I'm so happy you like it, and thank YOU and Maple for organizing this as well! I can't wait to get reading! ;u;
michaelmas
2 years ago
The book is really good so far; I'm about 150 pages in. I hope you enjoy it too
inkcaps
2 years ago
@vashti Favicons really help to tie things together, I like to add them when I remember! ;u; But yay that's good to hear! I've heard great things about Crime and Punishment and that it's a page turner, so this will be fun!!
inkcaps
2 years ago
JUST KIDDING I HAVE SOMETHING NEW I created my page for the Bookbug book club! Excited to start sharing reviews and seeing everyone else's! :D
inkcaps
2 years ago
I ramble far too long about James Cameron's little cult classic flick called Titanic (1997)
nymphblood
2 years ago
your words: "in an age where media consumes itself in the Ouroboros of irony and cynicism, often for the sake of reaching towards ""intellectual"" ideals, isn't it wonderful to watch something that's almost painfully sincere?" ring so true, I adore the way you speak.
inkcaps
2 years ago
@maplebear will do!! If I can't find any then I'm considering of creating one myself!
inkcaps
2 years ago
@nymphblood aww of course, I wanted a quick path back to your castle! It's an honor to have a spot in your village square as well ♡♡
ophanimkei
2 years ago
Crying.. thank you for the kind words.. I'm having a rough night and seeing this made me so happy
inkcaps
2 years ago
@vashti thank you so much!! I'm really behind on everyone's button descriptions, so maybe tomorrow I'll go back and continue adding captions. A part of me almost wants to make a new format for them but we'll see!! ;u;
inkcaps
2 years ago
@ophanimkei AHHHH MALA it's the truth!! But I'm happy they cheered you up!! ; __ ;
nymphblood
2 years ago
Thank you for your kind words, I am so flattered! You are welcome in my castle anytime ♥
teddiursa
2 years ago
thank you so much for the lovely comment, and for following me too! <3 And no worries - I love the design of your website, it's so cosy! especially enjoyed your tea page :)
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Updated my lolita wishlist and main pieces!! ;u;
Little Princess in black by Physical Drop looks absolutely darling. This is so precious
@nymphblood not only is it a super versatile piece (with an adorable cut!), but it would also be easy to just throw on as well. I hope to have it someday!! ♡♡ Thank you so much for looking, your comments are always so genuine! ; __ ; ♡